The 'Goodbye' Funk

I just finished a series I've been watching called, 'My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho,' and I'm stuck in that funk that always comes when I've finished something. I'm sure it didn't help that most of the last episode was really sad. I cried. I admit it. I even watched the last episode over right after I'd finished it the first time because it had been done so well, and also, because I just wasn't ready to let it go yet.

The show wasn't one of my favorites. I didn't watch it every day hoping that another episode would be posted and often didn't even catch up all the way when there were a few new shows for me to watch, but I still enjoyed it. I didn't particularly like the main male character in the beginning. I liked the 'bad' guy better because he was holy crap beautiful. Then I realized that pretty guy couldn't act very well so the show was relegated to 'when I have nothing else to watch' status.

But the main guy grew on me and, I don't know when it happened, but I fell for him. I wanted so badly for him and the main girl character to be together, and be happy. I guess I'm just like every other girl raised on fairy tales. I want a happy ending.

I did get a happy ending,supposedly, but it was still an ending. Even when I know that something is ending, even when I know when it ends before I even begin it, the end always catches me off guard. There have been very few series (books or shows) that don't leave me... sad at the end. I think I've explained it in an earlier blog, but I miss them. I miss the characters that I've come to love, or love to hate. I miss our experiences together. I feel like my best friends are moving to a different country and I'll never see them again. All I have left are memories. And my memory being what it is, it's not a good feeling.

So, I spent a couple hours this morning watching and crying over 'My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho,' and I think my mood isn't going to be improving much until at least tomorrow. I don't know why I put myself through this sort of thing. I guess the only way to avoid it would be if I stopped reading and watching shows, and I'm just not willing to do that; even though it causes me pain in the end. The happy times were worth it. At least, that's what I'm going to keep telling myself until I feel better about the end of 'Gumiho.'