I was looking through a couple boxes that I've kept of my school work and I had the horrid realization that I wouldn't be able to do that level of work right now. I got some good grades on tests and as I read the questions I think, "...duh...george?" It's a little sad to think that I've forgotten more than I currently know. If I had perfect retention, or ANY retention, I'd be one smart cookie. I look at my math homework, you know, the one assignment I actually turned in, and I can't help but realize, wow, I used to know this! What happened to it? Even some of my reports...
Maybe it's good that I didn't actually end up sending in an application for that science thing I was all excited about. I'd probably end up trying to mix two chemicals or compounds that really shouldn't be mixed and blow the building to smithereens. Then I'd be in trouble.
I never liked learning things in school, but I really liked knowing them after I'd been forced to learn them. Now that no one is making me learn or use any kind of real problem solving, I'm getting really rusty and I don't get that empowering feeling of, 'ha! I know that when not many people do' feeling that I used to get on a regular basis. Ok, that regular basis was like once a week, but that's more than now!
Am I going to do anything about it? Nah, probably not. Like I said, I like knowing things but I hate learning them. If I'm not being made to put in an effort, the effort will not be made. Oh well. I need to find a guy who will make me do things because I won't do them on my own.
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